*This was written on Thursday but I didn’t have a chance to read it over or finish the last sentence until this morning.
Today was a tough day, and it made me (somewhat) doubt my ability to be a mama to two kids. At this point, there’s no going back. She’s going to be here in a little over two months, and I am so incredibly excited to meet her.
I had lots of anxiety and fear over having to care for an infant while keeping a toddler happy during the first trimester of this pregnancy. Suddenly, those fears disapated. Maybe my hormones regulated, maybe the sun came out (love me some vitamin D), or something else, but I felt great. Confident. Let’s do this!
Today I watched another kiddo (8 months), and it was so challenging. She’s a sweet little girl, but she’s dealing with separation anxiety and really hasn’t been away from her parents much. She needed to be constantly held. There was crying from both Finley and the LO, sometimes at the same time. I was in survival mode the whole time, and unfortunately we did very little playing.
At one point, when both were overtired and in tears, I attempted to divide and conquer. LO went in the pack n play while I read Finley a couple books to help her calm down before attempting to put her down for a nap. That failed.
Finley came in the nursery where the pack n play was set up. I put Daniel Tiger on the iPad, and I held the little girl in the rocker while she napped. During this time, Finley pooped, and it was definitely past her normal nap time. I tried putting LO down in the pack n play, but her eyes opened immediately.
The LO’s mom came to pick her up at 1:30pm, and Finley was still awake (she’s normally asleep by 12:30pm). After she left, Finley was not interested in napping, even though she was exhausted. Finally, she fell asleep at 2:55pm.
Long story short, having two kids isn’t going to be easy (duh). I know the situation today was unique, but it gave me a glimpse into how challenging some days may be with two.
I wrote this all while holding my sleeping daughter, who finally fell asleep in her crib and only slept there for 45 minutes. It’s now 4:30, and she’s about to wake up.